A Feeling to Remember

I hate how I wanted to get back to writing that much, but I'm having absolutely no time for that. My head is already too crowded and I badly need to get some stuff out, but oh well, that's just life.

Anyway, I just came here to write how I feel right now. I think I would want to remember this later. Prom is tomorrow.. In like, 18 hours. And I have never felt that proud in my whole life. I actually don't feel I'm going to miss anything, and some people who are already going, don't seem excited either. I've heard too many stories about what people thought of the ones who decided not to go, and a lot of people tried to convince me to change my mind, but holding on to what I believe in, was all I could do. It actually wasn't hard.

You know when you feel God's patting you on your shoulder, telling you to hang on, and strongly supporting you? I've witnessed that feeling through the last couple of days and it actually feels... I can't even describe it, I'm just so happy! He even found me another party to go, but even better! Hamza Namira is my all-time favourite artist and I haven't missed any concert of his before! Surprisingly, he's having a concert on the same exact day, at the same exact time. It's like God knows exactly what I'll need. Hamza totally gets me out of whatever mood I'm in, so just the thought of God sending that to me, is.. Amazing.

I've just went through my Twitter profile and I've noticed there were a lot of prom-related tweets, which is not really good. I don't think I should care that much. I mean I have what's even better, why should I keep thinking about it?

A friend of mine, who's very much like me, isn't going too, and we've deciding we're going to the concert together in-sha'Allah.

I feel so proud, because I did not go with the flow, and I actually did what many of them wanted to do but feared what people would say. And I feel so happy, for the closeness I feel with God, and I love Him so much. Though I haven't been that good for the last few days, but what He's getting me through now is totally putting me on the right track once again. Just one year ago, I know I wouldn't have been thinking that way, so I'm thankful for the person God made me today.