We've sadly reached a point where people care mostly about appearances more than anything else, and just keep on misjudging each other. I can say I've always been misjudged through my whole life for being somehow close-minded, or as they say "مُعقدة". People have this weird idea in mind, that whoever tries getting close to God or have some kind of "مبادئ", then they're close-minded and don't know anything about fun. They never actually get the real idea of religion. I'm not even that religious myself, but religion is totally different from how they all think of it.
I've always been doubting myself, and I've always thought it was my responsibility to let people understand that religion is just not what they think of it. I cared too much about being misjudged - by people I don't even know. Until just this year. I realized that whatever you do, people will keep on judging you, and that there are way more important things in life than caring about what people think of you. What if people, that I don't even know, thought I was close-minded? Would that even change a thing about my life? Trying to prove to people something about yourself that they misunderstand, is one of the most useless things anyone could ever do. They'll never change their opinions anyway, so you might as well just have fun being yourself instead of thinking about each and every action you do, fearing you'll be misjudged for it. People actually don't really care that much about you anyway.
So, I'm glad I've reached this stage by now, cuz this year everyone at my school is kind of obsessed with the whole prom thing and I don't really care that much. I'm kind of an introvert, so parties just aren't my thing, but I know I'll be misjudged for that. I've decided I'm not going to the prom a very long time ago, but I've always wondered how I'd be able to tell people about that. I gave it much more thought than anyone could ever imagine, and I actually can't believe I was that unconfident.
I have my own reasons. First of all, I'm not really attached to my colleagues this year, and I've seen a couple of photos for birthday parties that were held this year and I've always felt thankful I weren't among them. Prom is even going to be worse than those pictures. Boys at our school aren't really that respectable, so I'm not really happy about being with them in the same place. Not to mention the dresses obsession, and how they've all gone crazy wanting so bad to get a title. These two points have so much to reflect on, but let's just get done with the rest of the reasons first. It all started with me not liking the people at school this year, and it does really end with religion, but I don't really want to discuss that cuz of the "مُعقدة" thing. I'm proud though of being added to that category, as long as I know I'm doing something right. But it's not just about religion anyway.
Moving on to the dresses part, it just kills me. I don't mind people wearing whatever they want, but the obsession itself is what drives me crazy. I know a lot of people who have been thinking about that since like, SEPTEMBER! And the prom's in April!! Why would anyone give it THAT much thought? I'm kind of always drawn away from things that obsess people. Whenever there's too much of something, I just start disliking it. And that's why I'm actually writing about this, and giving it that much thought. The obsession. So, getting back to the dresses part, I have something more to add. Before deciding I'm going to directly tell people I'm not going, I've been asked a couple of times; "What are you going to wear?". My reply would always be "I have that dress that I wore for my sister's engagement, I guess I'll just wear it.", and you'd never imagine the looks of shock I'd always see on their faces. I don't get this, seriously! Aren't I supposed to wear something that looks nice and I'd just feel comfortable in? WHY do they give THAT MUCH thought about appearances. I don't really get why people find it offensive to wear something they've already worn, twice. Or even more! I don't get the idea. I personally know people who buy new dresses -or whatever outfit they need- for every single event they attend, and then they don't wear them again! Why? Because; "what would people say about me? I can't afford to buy clothes?", or whatever excuse they have, but it always involves "people saying". This is something I probably won't ever understand, thinking that much about clothes. To be honest, I used to give attention to what I wear, in the past. Cuz as I've already mentioned, I thought it was my responsibility to present islam. And I thought part of it was through clothes "obsession". I took care not to repeat outfits a lot so that Muslims wouldn't be judged for that. But thank God, I'm now a normal person!
A person should never be judged according to what they wear, and I strongly believe that people who judge that way, have some kind of issues. I used to have issues before, yes. But coming to really think about it, people do not deserve to take that huge part of my mind, I've more important things to stuff my mind with. Not to mention that we live in the same country with people who can't even afford to buy that one outfit. هنتحاسب عالكلام ده.
The Prom titles part is totally a different story. I've heard so much stories about people who "wanted" to get for example the "Funniest" title. How do you actually get to "want" to be something? Re-think about that previous question again. How do you "want" to be something? Don't you already have your own personality? And if you're actually something, people will vote for you eventually, without you "wanting"? I know these days the "cool gang" just organize the votes to take them all but that is just no excuse for "wanting" to be something. No seriously, the idea of this "wanting" thing is causing a HOLE in my head! The cool gang are also weird. They unethically give themselves titles for, again, something they're NOT. Isn't that some kind of having issues, or am I the weird person over here?! The amount of stories I've heard about the whole titles thing, is C.R.A.Z.Y.
This is exactly why I do not want to go. With all what I've mentioned, how on Earth am I going to have fun with people with such a mentality? Even if my reasons do not make sense for people, they do for me. I honestly don't like how people keep convincing me to come. I mean, I don't convince any of you not to go, why wouldn't you do the same? I totally have nothing against people who're going, my own best friends are going and I don't mind at all. They respect my decision and in return, I should respect theirs as well.
I don't even mind being judged as a person who doesn't know how to have fun. Cuz one thing I'm sure of is; the meaning of "fun" totally differs from one person to another. And prom to me is no where near what fun is.
I've always been doubting myself, and I've always thought it was my responsibility to let people understand that religion is just not what they think of it. I cared too much about being misjudged - by people I don't even know. Until just this year. I realized that whatever you do, people will keep on judging you, and that there are way more important things in life than caring about what people think of you. What if people, that I don't even know, thought I was close-minded? Would that even change a thing about my life? Trying to prove to people something about yourself that they misunderstand, is one of the most useless things anyone could ever do. They'll never change their opinions anyway, so you might as well just have fun being yourself instead of thinking about each and every action you do, fearing you'll be misjudged for it. People actually don't really care that much about you anyway.
So, I'm glad I've reached this stage by now, cuz this year everyone at my school is kind of obsessed with the whole prom thing and I don't really care that much. I'm kind of an introvert, so parties just aren't my thing, but I know I'll be misjudged for that. I've decided I'm not going to the prom a very long time ago, but I've always wondered how I'd be able to tell people about that. I gave it much more thought than anyone could ever imagine, and I actually can't believe I was that unconfident.
I have my own reasons. First of all, I'm not really attached to my colleagues this year, and I've seen a couple of photos for birthday parties that were held this year and I've always felt thankful I weren't among them. Prom is even going to be worse than those pictures. Boys at our school aren't really that respectable, so I'm not really happy about being with them in the same place. Not to mention the dresses obsession, and how they've all gone crazy wanting so bad to get a title. These two points have so much to reflect on, but let's just get done with the rest of the reasons first. It all started with me not liking the people at school this year, and it does really end with religion, but I don't really want to discuss that cuz of the "مُعقدة" thing. I'm proud though of being added to that category, as long as I know I'm doing something right. But it's not just about religion anyway.
Moving on to the dresses part, it just kills me. I don't mind people wearing whatever they want, but the obsession itself is what drives me crazy. I know a lot of people who have been thinking about that since like, SEPTEMBER! And the prom's in April!! Why would anyone give it THAT much thought? I'm kind of always drawn away from things that obsess people. Whenever there's too much of something, I just start disliking it. And that's why I'm actually writing about this, and giving it that much thought. The obsession. So, getting back to the dresses part, I have something more to add. Before deciding I'm going to directly tell people I'm not going, I've been asked a couple of times; "What are you going to wear?". My reply would always be "I have that dress that I wore for my sister's engagement, I guess I'll just wear it.", and you'd never imagine the looks of shock I'd always see on their faces. I don't get this, seriously! Aren't I supposed to wear something that looks nice and I'd just feel comfortable in? WHY do they give THAT MUCH thought about appearances. I don't really get why people find it offensive to wear something they've already worn, twice. Or even more! I don't get the idea. I personally know people who buy new dresses -or whatever outfit they need- for every single event they attend, and then they don't wear them again! Why? Because; "what would people say about me? I can't afford to buy clothes?", or whatever excuse they have, but it always involves "people saying". This is something I probably won't ever understand, thinking that much about clothes. To be honest, I used to give attention to what I wear, in the past. Cuz as I've already mentioned, I thought it was my responsibility to present islam. And I thought part of it was through clothes "obsession". I took care not to repeat outfits a lot so that Muslims wouldn't be judged for that. But thank God, I'm now a normal person!
A person should never be judged according to what they wear, and I strongly believe that people who judge that way, have some kind of issues. I used to have issues before, yes. But coming to really think about it, people do not deserve to take that huge part of my mind, I've more important things to stuff my mind with. Not to mention that we live in the same country with people who can't even afford to buy that one outfit. هنتحاسب عالكلام ده.
The Prom titles part is totally a different story. I've heard so much stories about people who "wanted" to get for example the "Funniest" title. How do you actually get to "want" to be something? Re-think about that previous question again. How do you "want" to be something? Don't you already have your own personality? And if you're actually something, people will vote for you eventually, without you "wanting"? I know these days the "cool gang" just organize the votes to take them all but that is just no excuse for "wanting" to be something. No seriously, the idea of this "wanting" thing is causing a HOLE in my head! The cool gang are also weird. They unethically give themselves titles for, again, something they're NOT. Isn't that some kind of having issues, or am I the weird person over here?! The amount of stories I've heard about the whole titles thing, is C.R.A.Z.Y.
This is exactly why I do not want to go. With all what I've mentioned, how on Earth am I going to have fun with people with such a mentality? Even if my reasons do not make sense for people, they do for me. I honestly don't like how people keep convincing me to come. I mean, I don't convince any of you not to go, why wouldn't you do the same? I totally have nothing against people who're going, my own best friends are going and I don't mind at all. They respect my decision and in return, I should respect theirs as well.
I don't even mind being judged as a person who doesn't know how to have fun. Cuz one thing I'm sure of is; the meaning of "fun" totally differs from one person to another. And prom to me is no where near what fun is.
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