Our beauty lies within our differences

People are confusing creatures, and out of all those people, I confuse myself the most.

I know I’m such an emotional person, I keep telling people how much I love them when I truly do, I can somehow feel what words people would need to hear, and try to say them. I write very long replies when I know it would mean a lot to people. And at the end, I'm surrounded by so many unemotional people, and they probably don't even realize it.

When I write long replies, I expect to get long ones in return, but I never do. When I support someone or even just listen to them, I expect to, at least, feel appreciated, but that sometimes goes unnoticed. I know a lot of those people do not do that on purpose, it's just their personalities, they express themselves in ways other than I do. I've always thought I needed to change that about myself. I thought being overemotional in an environment where most people lack emotions, was wrong. I tried changing that, I would start giving shorter replies, start noticing how people act and try to act like them, just to be able to deal with them. But at the end I would know there was something wrong. I would always feel uncomfortable, within. This was so not myself, I was trying to be someone I'm not, just to be like everybody else. Which is the most stupid thing, ever.

I stopped for a second and thought, why would I be the one changing myself for people? Why wouldn't they be the ones increasing their emotional skills or something? Then I thought, why would any of us even change themselves for the other? The two sides have different personalities, experiences, and concepts. We only deal with people through ways that makes us most comfortable, and if any one tried changing one thing about themselves, they'll be uncomfortable and they'll never feel true about themselves anymore, for they're constantly pretending to be someone they're not.

I express myself better through words, through plenty of words, and if I ever stop that, I'd lose a meaning of life. I won't even fit in that other group, cuz I don't even know how to do that. It's just not me. And on the other hand, unemotional people would still never feel better if they ever joined the other side.

Everyone is unique in their own way, and if we keep trying to reduce our differences to be able to deal with others, this world will just be a very, very boring place.

I'm proud of being such a detailed, talkative, and emotional person. Cuz that's what defines me. This is who I am. And this is something that should never change for the sake of people.

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