I love those days in which I feel that God's the one who has waken me up. I set my alarm yes, but I don't always hear it, so God is usually the one who wakes me up. Or so I believe. Today was one of those days.
I got out of bed at around 8 am for my bus was going to be there at 8.30. I had previously planned what I was going to wear so it didn't take me so long, and off I went. The bus was there on time, and I was the first one to ride. Then came in yesterday's 20-year-old girl and we had a small conversation. It was definitely better than yesterday, we still had some awkward silences, but not as awkward as I were yesterday. I guess it was just the first shock of being around people.
We arrived there early and waited for the day to begin while having some conversations. I was very energetic and kept talking to everyone, welcoming whoever came in the room, and being friendly with whomever felt out of place. I realized I love being friendly to people I don't know. We took pictures and chatted until almost everyone was there. One of last year's friends was sitting beside me and she was really friendly, and we discussed colleges and stuff. Then she realized my phone was on airplane mode, and they all kept making fun of me since then, for I said I hated talking with people, in a good way though.
We started the day with the explanation session once again, continuing Surat Al-Tawba. Today was mainly about a battle called "Tabuk". The lecturer kept telling us all about it, and how Muslims back then went through a lot of hardships to fight Romans and spread Islam. It was great.
Then came Qur'an time. I hadn't been reading it since a really long time and for that I felt really bad. I lost my ability to read at first, but it was okay later. I just felt bad cuz I knew how to read but it was as if it was the first time ever for me to. I didn't care about people, I just knew God must have been really mad at me. I never want to leave it that way again, seriously.
While we were reading, a girl started crying after she was done because she had messed up so many things while reading. She was a different girl, other than yesterday's, her cousin actually. And again, I felt really thankful for at least still having the ability to read, and for knowing I'd never cry if I were ever in a similar situation. I hope I last that way for a long time.
Break time. I saw a girl from last year's week, and felt happy to see her again. She was very awkward at the beginning and probably didn't remember my name, but later when she saw me again she told me something that I'll never forget. She told me I looked more beautiful than I did last year, and that really made me happy. It was the second or third time someone compliments that, and I always felt thankful for continuously getting cuter. I'm not stupid, right? Right?? No seriously, I just love such compliments, especially from people who haven't seen me in a long time, cuz I never notice any changes in myself, so, IT JUST MAKES ME HAPPY OKAY? lol, it just truly does.
Another friend from last year who hasn't been really good friends with me, spoke a lot with me today and even asked me to come sit with her once. I noticed that the key to people is simply "listening". It's something most people lack nowadays, as everyone's just always talking, talking, and talking, and no one has the time to listen to anyone. And no one really gives people the reactions they wait for. So, I discovered it was actually a skill of mine, that again, I'm so thankful for. I seriously love the small special parts that God adds to my personality throughout the years.
After the break, we had the second part of yesterday's session but with a different lecturer. She was the sister of my Qur'an teacher, who looks so much like her. I realized I missed her so much, and I'm such a bad person for totally losing contact with someone as beautiful as she is. Anyway, the lecture was interesting. She first showed as a video of a guy who has been totally lost, searching for happiness, and how he found it when he found God. It was very touching. The rest of the lecture was mainly the same as yesterday, I actually enjoyed it more yesterday. I don't remember anything that significant that I've learnt, we were just talking about the processes of Tawba and how to do it and so. Almost just like yesterday. We were divided into three groups and ours had 10 members, so I didn't really get to work that much like yesterday. I realized I only take the responsibility of something when there's no one else to take it. I was actually too lazy today.
I didn't enjoy the day that much like I did yesterday, except maybe for the very last part. The daughter of my Qur'an teacher, who's an Applied Arts major, came to teach us some painting. She just got married a few days ago and I was very happy for her. I welcomed her with a huge smile and said congratulations but I felt that feeling you get when you meet most of the newly weds. I dunno if it's just me, but she just wasn't the person I knew. If I ever got married, I truly never ever want to change any of my ways with people. I have no idea why they all change. Or most of them, to be fair.
Though I know nothing about drawing and painting, but I got to know an amazing person through that activity. She was sitting beside me and we shared a few laughs until we were choosing what to draw and she asked me to draw something like her. I loved that. We started drawing the same thing and painting together, and it was actually so much fun. That girl is just too cute. I love those people whom you can totally get used to as soon as you know them. We didn't even get to know each other and such stuff, we just immediately felt we were friends, and that's my favourite kind of people.
I don't think today was that significant, but I did not dislike it though. It was a good one.
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